'Dream Big' by Ravyn LaRue

I’m scared
that my only big ambitions
are venturing away
from actually being art
they say activism is art
but it seems just like
crying politics
when I do it
and whining
yes
lots of whining
and I don’t want to
forever be
a whining machine
I want to be the gliding thing I was
I want to be the cuddles into fat rolls mother
I want to be the devilish smile
I want to be the purple prose
I want to be the voice striking through
I want to be whatever it was that I was before
and I feel like I need to rip myself to shreds
in order to find the seed that got buried by hurt
because I am not growing into
someone I am proud of
and that is terrifying