'Revolutionary Suicide' by Ravyn LaRue

Oh God, this hurts already
But that's why I do it
My heart drowns in some sappy sorrow
Oh love, you and I both
I know the convulsions are coming
I still flinch
I mustn't pause
Though it makes my ribs contract
And my skin twitch and hide
Please remember me, my friends
For I feel like Claude here
I am invisible
And though I know miracles can happen in this state
I am not enchanted
I swear that happened to me once
Oh it's shorter than expected
But again is necessary since the hurt hasn't healed
But I swear
I swear
I swear
That happened to me here
In a literal sense
Ask my mom
Ask my brother
There was a time I could not be seen
And I believe in the supernatural
And maybe that's a sign that I should go back home
I'm contemplative
And I just want my tribe
Aquarius
Please let me be part of them again
I cannot go on like this
Since you know what invisible means
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
I just need proof
That you can see me
That you can hear me
When I cannot touch you
And I used to want to be a ghost
But that is no more
And it's so scary to me
That I know I've been had
Like it or not they got me
And you know what that means
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
I know the cacophonous roar will come after me soon
And my chest will bleed until I am no more
I will die here if I stay
But revolutionary suicide is pretty
Isn't it
For Hunter and Hedda and all of them
And art is everything
Whether I like it or not
And I'm cool with being a human sacrifice for my religion
Though I hope now is not my time
But one never chooses do they
Some great spirit happens
And the naive ones
Like me
Are always more malleable to spirits
You know what that means
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Don't you
Like it or not I'm staying a while longer in this mystery place
Somewhere where I'm invisible
You know what that means
Don't you?