'The Last Time I Saw You We Had Just Split In Two' by Ravyn LaRue

I don’t even know quite how to fumble all my feelings into something worthwhile
Which I want to do, for you, even though my heart is not in my chest anymore
So it’s hard to give to you
It beats beneath the glorious home we love
The place that raised you and I
The glorious place I met you in
The space that is my sanctuary
Where I was when we first met
Where I was when we triumphed
I don’t think there are words to prove how much you mean to me
Today I heard someone say writing is a paradox
Because all you want to do is put into words the feelings that surpass words
And that’s perfect
Because what I feel for you surpasses all language
Like Ms.Hart says
When emotions are too big they spill into song
And you are what keeps me singing
I just want to brag about my beloveds back home
“My best friend, Jen, you know, the greatest Velma ever, she is phenomenal- I don’t even think you know!”
And they don’t
You are too great and unfathomable for the people here
I’ve experienced many of the best moments of my life with you by my side
And the fact that you triumph
Though far from the home we love
Makes my struggles seem so much more worthwhile, knowing things are great for you, at least
I can’t wait for Christmas
When I’ll spend as much time as humanly possible with you
I was telling my mum how it feels, today
And she did an all-knowing half chuckle and said
“That’s how I felt when I left England”
And her words came back to me
The ones she said on my last night at home
“You truly love your friends, don’t you?”
And I do
When all I want to do is immortalize my memories of them and you in all I write and say and do
And I cope through music
A thing you and I both cherish
I try to be good and not complain
But you never mind my kvetching
And I love you for that
I love you for everything, but at this moment, the shining grace you bestowed helps profoundly
Especially when music brings catharsis on its golden wings
But when I’m away from loved ones, catharsis only digs me deeper
It’s still healing, but it still hurts
And when Hedwig makes me cry
You’re the one to say
“Don’t worry, I’ll watch it with you at Christmas!”
There aren’t many days left until we’ll be reunited
Though, even then, it seems like an eternity
Especially when you adore someone this much