Wednesday, August 21, 2013

'Sentimentality' by Ravyn LaRue


Love, I know I wrote one already but I intend with all my might to get sentimental in this small allotment of hours we have together, before I'm uprooted and life changes entirely for me.
Despite knowing you for a drastically shorter amount of time than the majority of my friends, you are far truer than most.
We've have such kindred souls, for all this time only for us to reveal it to each other now.
You really are like family to me, chosen family, a loved one.
That's probably why something compelled me deeply to choose you as my son while we both frolicked in the background of Carousel.
You've fascinated me since the moment I laid eyes on you, and you've inspired me so.
The fact that you can get so gushy and emotional towards me just makes my heart melt- I adore you so, and though this is the thousandth time today I've said those simple words I mean it more and more.
I feel more comfortable around you than most people I've known for decades, I feel I can bare my soul to you, though I still have shreds of worry-
Residual trauma and all that from years of false friendships, but you seem to know of those unfortunately all too well.
You don't deserve any bad things life dishes out to you and considering how it seems you have your share, it proves profoundly how strong and magnificent you are.
You really mean the world to me, and though you sleep and sniff just beyond this blackened keyboard, I know it's ephemeral.
This moment will cease soon, and I'm not nearly ready to give it up- I feel like we've just begun.
Our paths crossed and joined together for a reason, and though we'll be going our separate ways in not too long, we'll always be able to wave at each other across the chasm between.
You talk in your sleep so sweetly, unintelligible things, that make no sense to me-
I can only hope my words here make sense to you since I love you more than I ever thought I would.
You were once just the silly talented brilliant boy I saw every so often and smiled at-
Now you are a soul that I want nothing more than to sing the joys and sorrows of life with, forevermore, while basking in the glory of every beam of sunshine.
You are such a darling, and though I don't want to leave you, please know I'll give up my cell-phone based social anxiety if it meant hearing a single word flow through the line in your beautiful voice.
I feel so comfortable with you, and though there's that microscopic shred of doubt, since our friendship seems too good to be true, please know I would run to the ends of the earth if it meant I could somehow help you.
Darling, I love you, I miss you and I'm so glad we're friends.
And though you missed some of my silent tears as you slept so soundly on my couch, know I've gotten to that peak where my sentimentality can flow.
So when you wake up I can bare my soul- even if I try to recede back into my callused up shell, make me tell you again and again how much you mean to me.
Since this'll be the last time I'll have the chance in person.
So I need to be sincere and I need more than anything for you to know.
Because I love you- I love you- I love you!

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