‘Raised Catholic’ by Ravyn LaRue

I’m finding my innards quarreling about faith
I watch horror movies and detective stories
and find it all too inspirational
when the ex-catholic gets stigmatas
finds a locket with her initials
and begins believing in miracles
yet I’m also equally enthralled
in agreeing with artists
who eagerly scoff off religion due to bad experiences
and cheer on bitter ex-catholic beloveds
and yet with all my claims for art as religion and spirituality
which it still is I assure you
I still manage to feel bad when I don’t adhere to lenten traditions
and feel guilty when I completely shrug off
All this tumult I was baptized into