'You Might Say It’s Self Destructive But You See It’s More Productive Than If I Were To Be Happy' by Ravyn LaRue

I really want a change in my life
and I want to do something
stupid and drastic
like packing up everything
taking all the money I can
and traveling across oceans
or perhaps
I’ll fling myself into someone’s arms
and I’ll claim it to be love
regardless of
whether or not
I’ll know otherwise
a girl asked me on a date the other day
and I said yes
but she asked with the condition
that we’ll do it when it’s hot and sunny out
and it’s Minnesota so that’s eternities away
she asked me to go to a bar with her
which leads to another thing
I could take up drinking
and be among the presence
of all the other blackout artists
but at the end of the day
I am rooted to things
that keep me from being
entirely
self destructive
so I just want to sleep until things are drastically different