I'm not as together as you think I am
If you knew, I think you'd be more empathetic
But you say things like
You're wiser from the experience
Instead of knowing I'm also broken from the experience
I don't know for sure whether or not I'll be alright
I'm holding on to such hope
Since I'm scared I won't be satisfied with home
But I know I need it
And I need my beloveds
Because they are what keeps me singing
Though right now I'm still just warming up
I'm back, now, and at least I have that
Never have I ever been more excited to be home
I'm taking Joey up on his option
Not because I like bitching
I've done quite a lot of that recently
But because I'll see my beloveds
I will see my loved ones again
And I am so excited for that
It's tomorrow and I cannot wait
I'm so glad to be home
Minnesota is so comforting
The familiar is much more beautiful than I ever thought it could be
And though morgan didn't greet me with the excitement I had hoped
And dad didn't seem to have missed me
I'm going to the home I call home, tomorrow
It is the artistic community I adore
And I want them to know, from the bottom of my heart-
How sincerely I adore them all
I'm so unsure of everything
Even what I'll say tomorrow
But in the arms of my beloveds
I know nothing else will matter
The beautiful photos Mama showed me prove it
Joe and I crying candidly
It's my favorite photo now
And I'm back to January last year
Though it still is December
But my mind's a muddle
A constant fog as thick as jelly brains
And I'm having homemade caramel coffee
All will be well because the more I hurt the better love feels
And I know that sort of ideology has many harmful implications
But it's how I feel
And for me, though it's dumb, dangerous emotions trump safe apathy
I don't know
I don't know about anything
Anything other than the fact that I am ecstatic about seeing my beloveds tomorrow
And I pray and hope, though I'm well aware it's selfish, that they missed me as much as I missed them
I've been wishing for that as I held my breath through tunnels as we drove up
Minnesota is the safest place I know
Its snowstorms aren't as biting as Chicago
I'm going to tell the babies the truth tomorrow
I will see them perform, hopefully, and beam like a proud mother
And I will be sincere
I should script it
Hello I'm _________
I graduated last spring (2013)
I went to Columbia College Chicago as a fiction writing major, acting minor-
But it isn't the place for me.
... Umm, let's see...
I'll be attending MCTC this Spring, but if you have any questions about Columbia, just ask.
Thank you!
I will do my best to not be malcontented.
I'm out of there now, so my likelihood of survival has greatened exponentially
Especially if I see Ms.Hart, Briggle and/or Joe.
I know I'll be seeing Joey and that in itself makes my heart soar.
I don't have much stability
But I have loved ones to guide me
So I take tons of comfort in that
I love them all so much!
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